suicidal feelings

[paul]

i, laid in bed last month and had the urge to kill myself, because of my bad feelings of being a man and cross dressing, luckily being in bed the feeling slowly left me, i have now seen my doctor, and a psychiatrist who has now diagnosed me as having gender dysphoria, i now have to go to a gender clinic next month and i will take it from there, i am feeling very nervous about it as i know i am going to have to tell family and friends/workmates about my problems.:eek: :o

[MJ]

hi paul please don't hurt yourself. i battle'd my feelings for years. work through your feelings. if i could talk to you man to man so to speak and just between you and me. it's not so bad becomeing a girl that is. you have been diagnose the hardest thing is the telling. but you have proff so it might help. there are lots of cd and ts here that have told there loved ones i hope thay post here and give you some good advice. give yourself time all the best

hugs Marissa

[Joy Carter]

Been there Paul but for far different reasons. I'm glad I didn't put my family through that because it did finally pass. It will for you to. So buck-up there chum it ain't so bad being a gurl. I was 56 before I learned who I am.

:hugs: From Joy

[kerrianna]

Good for you for helping yourself Paul. Good luck with your path and remember that there are lots of friends here who understand and support you. You are not alone.

:hugs:
Kerrianna

[jennig]

HI paul Iam glad you sought help. thear is nothing worth killing yourself over!
rember life is not easy for most and alot harder for us c/d-t/v and we are all hear for each outher. tahk things slow meet with your counslers and please talk to us we are hear for you!!!!
love jennig

[Clarissa]

Don't hurt yourself. Find out the root cause and do what needs to be done to fix it. You have all of our support. Just remember that!

[Scottie]

I just recently had a SEVERE bout with depression, and it's on ly happened once in life before - although I'm a fighter and survived it.

This past one - chemically induced by T blockers, Gawd it creeps up on you and then BAM life sucks.......and it did, notice I haven't been here much.

I've recovered, stopped the T-blockers yet again and will never take them, it's just not for me......

So if you are taking something, now is a good time to consider weaning off of it.

If you are NOT taking anything, I know this is a broken record but FORCE Yourself to get up and do somethign that makes you happy.

For me it's writing code and working on a project in the garage - that project REALLY keeps me going, and I wrote a program that SHOULD have taken me until December to write - I finished it in 3 days FLAT.

It's hard to force yourself to do stuff, I've been there, chemically, and it sucks......in my case I'm pulling out of it sharply, very fast.

Now, onto the guilt feelings......That's hard, I dont' know what to tell you on that one, except to realize who you are, whether it be femme or not.

For me that realization is that I'm a guy with feminine traits that will always be here.......that much I've realized and I don't get mad at myself or don't get guilt feelings anymore when I shave my legs and slip into a girls tank top to sleep in.....

I wish you well, stay with us here :)

[Stlalice]

Been there and done that where feeling suicidal over being gender dysophoric is concerned - please don't do anything foolish. You may not realize it but the hardest thing is behind you. And that is realizing that you need help and then getting it. Once you do that and accept who you are inside things will get easier to deal with and what you need to do will become clear to you. Where coming out to your family, friends, coworkers, etc is concerned my advice is to take it slow - you first have to come out to yourself and accept who you are before you can have a chance of success with others. Good luck Paul and hang in there, things will get better. You can PM me if you want to talk. :hugs:

[Makina]

All I can do is giving you a big hug

[princessmichelle]

:hugs:

[CaptLex]

Good for you for helping yourself Paul. Good luck with your path and remember that there are lots of friends here who understand and support you. You are not alone.
You beat me to it, Kerrianna. Paul, I also want to say congratulations on picking yourself up and asking for the help you need. I know how hard that is. And please remember that we're always here if you need us.

Be well, hon. :hugs:

[LaurenMar]

I've felt that way to.

I know how you feel and send my love.


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Lauren

[paul]

thank you all, for all your support, i'll keep you posted paul x

[Lisa Golightly]

Just love yourself Angel... The rest comes with time.

Lisa x

[Bruce Siobhan]

Just love yourself Angel... The rest comes with time.

Lisa x

:iagree: with Lisa.

huge :hugs: Anna Marie x

[silkrose]

Just love yourself Angel... The rest comes with time.

Lisa x

Like everyone else on earth, our lives are not perfect. God dealt us each a hand. For some it was poverty, others wealth, and a varying dose of life's tragedies to everyone. This group has a dose of gender identity disorder. Love yourself at the core, but know that there are people who love you too and they will miss you - regardless of the issues you have.

Recall a line in the movie "SEA BISCUIT" - where the characters were about to put down an injured horse but were stopped by another, think it went something like this: "You don't throw away a whole life just because it needs a little fixing."

[michelle19845]

it gets low and high at times severely.as time goes by you won't even realize that you've come so far in such a small time.small steps are the key,don't forget.

[Calliope]

Hope the clinic helps. And, consider: you're more than a female - you're you and have (I bet) plenty of general passions in your life. Guitar playing, 1940s movies, whatever. If you possibly can, indulge those comfort interests between now and your appointment. Stay busy.