Good days feeling wasted !
Since my last talk with my wife the small steps to being more open with my CDing is gently happening !
Today I had the house to myself so I totally dressed with forms but without wig and only neutral lipstick ! I tucked the skirt inside my waterproof overtrousers pulled my jacket over my bust and took the dog for it's morning walk ! I made no attempt to hide the outline, I thought if I was in transition I would have to get accustomed to this anyway !
When I got back put on some heels and cleaned right through the house ! By the time I'd finished it was time for the lunch time walk, I didn't even bother to wipe off the lipstick and instead of my jacket I used my wife's black parka style short coat !
The day was so enjoyable, it wasn't wasted but I had no one to share how it feels to be at peace with my Cding !
I can see now how true Reine's words were several months ago, in trying to achieve a balance with your CDing ! I'm not there yet and in my case it's only achievable not only through my acceptance but the understanding and acceptance of my wife !
I would love so much to share the good days with her !
