Do you remember what your very first thoughts and feelings were when looking at yourself in the mirror dressed or semi dressed the first time?
Mine were...
1.This must be wrong,but it feels so right I can't stop,I'm on autopilot.
2.Turned on by the buzzing and humming sensations derived from it and the state of euphoria it put me in,while still trying to determine exactly why.
3.Being sad there would have to be an end to it soon, I would have to leave a place I really enjoyed with no prospect of returning.