I often wonder what would have happened if I had never gotten into CDing at all. What would I have become? Would I wind up a tottering old geezer who doesn't have a clue? Well, I am that sometimes regardless but I think what keeps me going and what more or less keeps me "young" is insight into myself and my feelings. I have been able to balance and integrate the feelings and so am not at odds with myself any longer. This in essense gives me the positive motivation to keep going no matter what the mode. I doubt I would have lasted this long otherwise as I would not really know how to act as a "normal" guy. Makes me wonder sometimes.