Hello ladies, I hope I have this post in the right place, here we go.... I am always asking myself why I do this, there must be a reason. When I was 12yo I was raped when I ran away from home,{my mom just died}, could this be why I CD? I dont mean to sound stupid but I have always felt different than the "other guys" even before this happened. I wonder if it never took place would I be CDing now or would I be a "normal man"? Has this happened to many if any of you out there?? Why does the "pink fog" come & go?? Yesterday I wore mens underwear all day & was not bothered, today I wore my G-string panties to work after thinking about it all night. Then I connot wait to get home today, as soon as I"m in the door I am wearing nothing but a TINY pair of bikini bottoms & feeling totally at ease & sexy within myself. In other word I feel "normal", I feel like me while CDing & when I am not I feel like a wierd bloke who wears womens clothes!!Sorry if this sounds a bit all over the shop but these posts never come out the way I want them too