As some of you know I have been seeing a therapist on and off for about a year. I went there at my wife's request, I don't think I really need it because I am happy witlh who I am, but I did it to please her and to give me someone to talk about my crossdressing with. She is very much against my CDing and the other day she found out that I purchased something on ebay. She told me whatever it is to get rid of it, and if I have anything else to get rid of that too. I tried telling her I';m still the person she married I just like to express my feminine side. She said she didn't care , I didn't marry a gay guy. Which I responded I'm not gay , but then she said you wear womens cloth so you must be gay. I told her just because I wear womens clothes does not make me gay.
To shorten the conversation all she really wanted was for me to quite and be her man and to get rid of any clothes that I had. There is no compromising with her, its' either her way or the highway. I started to leave but then she said that she would make sure that I never saw my kids again. This I could not tolerate, so I stayed and told her I would get rid of everything. I just can't abandon my kids, but I also can't get rid of anything. so I did the very next best thing. I rented a small storage unit and put all my clothes and other things in it, for now.
I keep praying that somehow she will change her mind or a least be more tollerant, so I will keep a low profile for now and be very careful of dressing, now just mostly underdressing. I know I am more than just a crossdresser from my sessions with the therapist and if the situation were to change I would begin to transition in a heartbeat.
It is so hard for me to put into words how I feel right now and the conflict in me is getting harder to control, but for the sake of my kids and my sainity I will try.
I stopped going to therapy about a month ago, I might just have to start again just for my own sainity. I so do miss going out dressed it is when I am at peace with myself.
Sorry for the long story, I'm not even sure if I make any sense, but I just need to write it out. Thanks all of you for lending me your time.