I haven't been a member of this board for to long, and I have to admit that before joining it I was pretty clueless to a lot it seems. I knew, or thought I knew at least some of the terminology,transexual,gay,bi,crossdresser,transge nder.etc. I had no idea that in the "spectrum" ( a new term for me) of the transgenderd that they were groups within the group. I had no idea of the infighting and dirision, or of the so called pecking order that some feel exists. I am not so child like that I don't know that people are not always going to agree with one another ....wouldn't that be boring. I also knew that the mainstream had some no very nice thoughts regarding we who are outside the rhelm of what most consider "normal". Still I had faith in the human condition. Here I am living as a woman 24/7. I have job, a home, friends, a mingle with the mainstreamers on a daily basis. Noboby has tried to club me over the head even though I am sure that some wouldn't have a problem doing just that. Iam pretty much able to come and go as I please save for places that may not even be safe for so called "normal" people to go. People do bad things to other people..fact of life. Murder,rape robbery..it's a sad fact of life. I don't feel that I am so special, I have to take my chances just like everyone else does. people who do those type things are going to do them if the opportunity presents itself..no matter who they feel like perpetrating it against, a gay, a crossdresser,tS,boy,girl,man woman,black...I think you get the idea. Sometimes people are just in the wrong place at the wrong time.
There are laws to protect all people,but they are only as good as the people who obey them....in terms of violence. In terms of job discrimination and such..now we're talking a different story.
I am getting off track here. ...so as I was saying.
So here I am walking around blissfully ignorant of the dangers that could befall me. And all of a sudden people are telling me that gays don't like me, and tS don't like Cd'er's and society hates the whole kit and kabootle of us.
What I need to do is to lose my individuality and adopt the herd mentality,because some feel that there is safety in numbers, and that I should keep my sexuality to myself, because it shows that I am different from you, and that takes from the herd and thus divides us. And the sad part is that it divides us from within our own spectrum. because some of us have our own predjudices, and we complain about other people from outside...having predudice against us.
My question is this... Am I just a naive kid, or have I just not become jaded as I feel many here have. Am I living in a fantasy world that only exists in my mind, or is there hope that I can continue to live and be happy as I have been doing for the past 4 years or so?
Kelly