I realized from my "fetish" thread, that IT DOES with me!
And I THOT I was beyond those feelings!
I'm PRETTY SURE it's NOT the acts of putting on and wearing ladies clothes. Or, all the extra gear I use to create a more fem illusion, tho! I think of THAT as sort of a fun, exciting hobby!
Even if I may be a bit obsessed with it!
My guilt seems to come from the fact that I get SEXUAL PLEASURE as a result of my dressing!
THAT makes me ANGRY at myself! That after 11 years of CDing, and nearly 2 years of sharing CDing on line, I should STILL feel guilty!? Why?
When my morning quickies in the shower don't seem to bother me at all?
And I'm frustrated! That I CAN'T seem to move past this sexual stage of dressing, on to just enjoying the dressing up and feeling fem, as SO MANY OTHERS HERE DO!
I can't help feeling there's something wrong with me! Why do I STILL feel guilty? Why can't I just enjoy my CDing for what it is?
Any help/advice/experiences would be MUCH appreciated!
(Sorry! This thread may be MORE confounding than my "fetish" rant!)