OMG...I'm off work at the moment and well at last a chance to be Clarrisa again. I live on my own so am able to stay dressed day and night. My brain seems to switch and i realy feel like i'm just another regular woman. My neighbours never bother me and i rarely, if ever, have visitors...Well yesterday morning i was sitting in my Garden under the Gazebo, i hadn't got fully femmed, was just relaxing in girljeans, i had my forms on. a bra. a boy jumper that had shrunken in the wash and crinkled, and a girly heartshaped necklace, i was just having a cuppa before the big make over, then i hear my garden gate open, then "Hello can i have a word....?" my next door neighbor "GULP", popped his head round to face me...i quickly folded my arms to conceal my bust,and necklace,but i couldn't sit like that all the time, next thing is i'm showing him some damage i have in my bathroom and he's offering to give me a hand with it, I can't believe he never noticed my bumps or necklace or the tightness of my jeans..I have to be honest i started to relax as he never said anything, then i noticed myself standing arms folded, weight on one hip, ie a girly stance..and OMG it felt so good, another hour and i would have been sitting in that Gazebo in my jean skirt....I been out there again today....and am realy worried about myself as i was realy hoping it would happen again...Whats the matter with me? its like i just want to get it over with cos i know i'll get caught eventualy cos lately i just don't seem to care anymore..