Originally Posted by
Violetgray
One thing that's cool about twitter/facebook, but scary if you're a crossdresser, is its habit of automatically connecting you with "People you might know." via the use of your email address. What this means is that if you have a picture of yourself as your avatar on facebook, dozens of people that you haven't come out to are looking at you enfemme under the heading: You may know this person. Twitter I believe has something similar, as I was friended by 10 people almost immediately, most of which I hadn't come out to yet. So I've been friended by these people, and I hoped that they just saw me, thought I looked nice, noticed I was local and said "Well, she probably has a few friends in common with me, I'll go ahead and friend her." This idea was bolstered by the fact that, no one in the comedy scene that had friended me online as Violet has said anything to me in drab. That was like 6 months ago, so I forgot about it.
O.k., so before the show on Sunday, I'm standing around chatting with the other comics. Brad, the guy who runs the night, who also happens to be a professional writer drops this bomb on me:
"Hey, I've been talking with a few of the other comics.... I have an idea for a comedy sketch that's a parody of all the "Ghost Hunter" shows on sci-fi and the like. I'd like you to be in the sketch.... as Violet. Would you be interested?"
I should point out that I did not know that Brad knew I dressed. But I knelt down to pick up my jaw, and said "Yeah I'll do it." Also, I ended up hosting for the night and got paid which was pretty cool.
Then later on after the show, I'm talking to Bryan, another comic and Lu, one of the regulars. Bryan's all like "Man, you fooled the heck out of me at the convention. You should dress as a girl every day." I took that as a huge compliment then the conversation moved past that to upcoming shows. Someone mentioned that on October 4th Brad was going to have a "Ladies' comedy night featuring all female comics and instantly I saw a light-bulb manifest above Lu's head. She went and called Brad over and said, "You're having a ladies night. You've GOT to put Violet on!" Brad smiled, turned to me and said "Well? Do you want to ? I'll feature you!"
O.k., imagine for a moment that you were trying to break into your chosen career and the person hiring said, "Would you like to come to work as a woman?" Go ahead, imagine that, I'll wait....
EXACTLY.
Talk about both fear and elation. This is kind of like sitting down in a roller coaster you're terrified of. Most of the people who will be at this show do not know that I dress as a woman, but they will after this! But I'll be doing what I love, how I love to look! This could be a pivotal moment for me, but I'll just take it as it comes.