Because I am, first and foremost, a FETISH DRESSER.
I KNOW that I'm trading opportunities with REAL women, for Sherry, my make believe female personality. But, it's DIFFERENT for me. In the past, I've had countless girlfriends, an ex wife, and children. U HAVEN'T, have U?!
When I choose Sherry over my 50/60 year old dates, I'm discusted by my choice, to date. Sounds similar to what U feel. But, at least I STILL have a choice! It sounds like u DON'T! And THAT'S wrong. Unless you're HAPPY NOT having one, and sounds like u aren't!
Personally, I think a few sessions with a good therapist would help u a lot, SL!
If u wish to discuss this further, please PM me!