As I have said before. I came out to my wife of 30 years about 5 years ago. I even hang my clothes in the closet off to the side. I'm sure she has spotted them. But since I told her, nothing has ever gone any further. I know that I shouldn't be, but I feel embarassed to bring up the subject again. Well today I arrived home after work about an hour before she did and like most days I dressed up and felt very happy as I sat down to read. My eyes started to get tired and I closed them for a short nap. Thats when I decided that I would let myself fall asleep and let her find me. This will show you all how desperate I am. Everyone keeps saying we should take it slow. I went so slow that nothing started. I was so afraid to bring it up again after reading about so many broken marriges. So I thought, why not get caught accidently. Well I fell asleep and woke up 15 minutes after the time she usually comes home. She had to work late. Can you believe that luck. Because now that I was awake, I started to think this was a bad idea and changed out of my clothes. As I'm writing this, I wonder how different tonight would have been if she came home on time. Would I have been happier? Or would things have gone bad? I wish I could get that embarrased feeling out of my system. I just love to dress as a woman and yet I would feel awfull if my wife turned against me.