I think I’ve finally turned the corner on this whole self-acceptance issue. Not sure what led to this moment of clarity, but I’ll gladly take it! While I would love to be passable and stroll amongst the general public with nary a worry, but that just isn’t a realistic expectation for me. But I’m learning that I can be comfortable taking smaller steps, and most importantly, feeling good about that. I wore eyeshadow to work today, and I didn’t freak out about people noticing or what they would say. Granted, it’s a neutral shade of tan so it’s not very noticeable, but you can tell if you look hard enough. In the past I’d have been so worried and nervous and I would have made myself miserable. But today I’m simply enjoying the fact that I’m wearing it and that it makes me feel pretty. Last week I also epilated from the waist down (I’m still working my way north!), painted my toenails, and am wearing panties today. And I feel comfortable and happy, and I don’t really care about what anyone else thinks about it. I’m even leaning towards getting my ears pierced. I know these things seem kind of trivial compared to the experiences of many of you, but for me this is big. So I'm happy that things are moving in the right direction. And I'm really happy because I just ordered a dress from Victoria's Secret!!!
Rebecca