As a child, I got ear infections a lot. Like twice a year I think.
When I sat home, I would watch soaps, look at the characters and wish I were like them, in the sense that I wanted to know what it felt like to NOT have an ear infection. I wished and wished and wished, but it didn't matter.
Sometimes, when I see a beautiful, well dressed or just a "normal" woman, I wish as hard as I wished then that I were her.
Yet, when I see a "guy" on TV who is totally a guy, I wish I were him too, just wondering what it is like to not have this feeling looming just beneath the surface.
All of these feelings seem just as strong when I feel them, but I can't shake any of them.
Should I choose one and run it down, or is this a limbo I will have to face for the rest of my life?
Meghan