ok, so i live with my mom and my step dad. we have a really small house so i can't dress up on a regular basis especially because my step dad is home almost all the time because he has a very special occupation, he's a couch potato. but i managed to throw on some of my mom's garments when i have a chance and ye cool there it is and i felt satisfied that many of her things look really nice on me. but i want more. those sessions were for 5 minutes tops each and every time because i would not get caught!! it can not happen. so i've been dressing now and then this way for awhile now. then when my instincts tell me that my parents are a mile away from home i undress in the speed of light. i get so paranoid and scared that im undressing so fast its not any longer under my control. all i do is watch in amusement how fast i change from a girl to my guy mode. its ridiculous. but im sick and tired of this. i really wish i had more time to dress up and have my own stuff. try on different wigs and make up techniques and stay dressed for a longer time. lately i've been feeling like im suffocating because i cant dress more often. its really part of me and being in boy mode for 24/7 makes me feel sick and depressed. i just feel like my life is stale. i know that it seems like the only option is to move out but its more complicated than that.
now has anyone ever went through anything similar? advice, ideas?