As with many of the older crossdressers in here, I have been doing some sort of dressing from an early age. As the years went by, the lenths I would go to dress and what I did to look feminine got more intense. Yes I am married, been always attracted to girls and never felt gay , the guy image does nothing for me. I too like the look of Denise better Dennis. I think she looks younger , more happy and less nervous. I did notice that after finding this site Denise has blossemed more. I had been taking more risks and even went out fully dressed to a club a couple of times alone and it felt normal being dressed as a girl. Yes before I had to wait for Halloween as an excuse. I asked my self a question today , do I feel more female inside than male. My answer was female. I have yet to go out as Denise during the day but that day may be near. I enjoy viewing pretty cd/tv's/ts's just as much as seeing a red hot swimsuit model. My fantacies are running a little wild and I feel like I missed out on something in life. So my question is:: the longer you dress, do your inner emontions change and your mindset starts thinking like a woman. its as if the longer you get intouch with your feminine side the more you want to feel like a woman. Should I worry or let the course run its path. Never thought I would go get pedicures in drab as a guy, get bright colors put on and walk out the salon in sandles , next I will be wearing womans sandles in and out what's next heels