I was thinking about dressing and reasons today as I got into a nice outfit for lounging around the house and thought of something from an angle I've never considered before.
I wonder how much of a factor just plain old curiosity was at the start of my dressing? I've always been a very curious person and probably almost drove my parents crazy with the question 'Why?' while growing up.
The more I think back now to my first dressing experiences, the more I recognize that perhaps many of them were driven by a strong sense of curiosity as much as anything else. What are pantyhose made out of? Why do women wear them? How do they feel to wear? What does it feel like to have bra straps on your shoulders and that band across your back? How do women walk in high heels? Can *I* do that? What does it feel like to have earrings dangling from your ears, swinging around as you move your head?
I seriously think that even if I didn't have the urge to crossdress, I would have tried most of these things anyway just to satisfy my curiosity... though they probably would have been a 'one time' thing.
As I finished dressing and stood in my forms, skirt, hose, heels, etc, I realized that most men go through life with NO idea how a skirt feels, or stockings, or any other of these items that only 50% of the population can wear.
One of the results of crossdressing is that I can see a woman wearing pretty much anything and know what it feels like, since I have worn almost all of it myself. I know the feeling of a long sweeping skirt, sheer hose, heels, and even the lacy lingere you see in Victorias Secret adds while to most other men it is just an unknown. I wonder how they THINK it feels or if they even ever think about it. I guess if they thought about it at all, they'd eventually try it and become one of us.
Even as a non-crossdresser, I would have had to know. Just like I 'have' to know and try to understand anything else I run into in life. Curiosity is just such a large part of who I am, I can't imagine NOT having tried dressing at some point, crossdressing or no.