Hey Girls,
I am sorry but this for this post I am probably going to sound like a hissy Girl, but I just need to get this off my chest. Lately as Kara has become more in tune with my life, I have had the feeling to come out to people. I have started a controlled release of information to people who I trust, people who I feel can take the information, but its not enough.
I am sick to death of having to run and quickly change clothing when my mum comes home early or if someone comes to the door, or having to make sure that all my makeup is off and my nail polish is gone (As you can tell I still live with my mother ). I always have to make sure that Kara's stuff is away at all times just in case my mum wants to come into my room, or if a friend drops over unexpectedly when Kara's stuff is all over the room (Like her Wig, handbag, clothing, etc).
I am proud of who I am. I have accepted who I am... Kara is part of me and if I ever loose her I would be truly alone. I detest the fact that because of Joe Public's views on what Males should dress like and act, I have to deny a part of myself just to please other people. Its just like I read a while ago (I believe on this forum): A girl can dress in men's clothing and is called a Tomboy, but is still considered normal. A Guy dresses in Girls clothing, and he is automatically labeled as gay, being weird and suddenly becomes a pariah in the community.
True, Its not as bad as it used to be I might add. TG/CD's are more accepted in the community now that ever before but being a CD is still a more 'in-the-closet' thing because of the ignorant masses who cant wrap their heads around the fact that we are just like them but instead of dressing in jocks we wear panties. I want to be who I am, I don't want to act asif I conform to Joe Pulbic's idea of a male, I want to act myself and be true to who I am.
To this end, I am considering going public just after Christmas by putting a message up on my facebook page. If people don't like it, they can sod off because they are not my friends if they cannot accept me for who I am!
*Exhales* Sorry about the Girls, I just needed to get that off my chest.
Lots of Love,
Miss Kara