This post is directed at all our sisters (and anyone else who might have an opinion on the topic) who have wives that know about their crossdressing but don’t want to be involved.
Do you just dress as you please? Or do you make sure to only crossdress out of her sight?
Do you talk about your crossdressing activities or is it a complete “don’t ask, don’t tell” policy?
Do you feel guilty about your crossdressing activities, even though they’re not a secret; and if so, why?
What, if anything, has really changed – good or bad - by coming out of the closet to your wife?
Do you feel like you are still in the closet?
I’ll go first:
I only dress when she’s not at home.
The last time we talked about it was over 2 months ago. I don’t bring it up because I don’t want to cause her pain; and she doesn’t bring it up, I THINK, because she’s hoping it will go away. Or maybe she’s trying to avoid causing ME pain. This one is still fuzzy.
Yes, I STILL feel guilty about crossdressing. Why? Because I’m STILL hiding it from her; even though she knows. Sound silly doesn’t it? I also think it’s because I have an activity that specifically excludes the one I love the most in the world, and that just feels wrong.
Good changes: I don’t have to hide my things quite a vigorously. I don’t have to worry about her drawing the wrong conclusions if she finds some of my femme things lying around. I’m not lying to her. Bad changes: the pain and confusion she feels from all the years I did hide it. Other than this, nothing has really changed. I still sneak around to buy my things, and I still sneak around to dress in them.
YES, YES, YES, I feel like I’m still in the closet. See “sneaking around” above. Also, humans are social animals. We want to get together with other like minded, and sometimes not so like minded, people and socialize. When I dress at home I’m alone. One of her boundaries is that I not go out in public while dressed, so I stay home: alone.
Okay, enough whining! Part of my problem is I’m still recovering from my last purge and it’s taking too long. I’m really not ready to go out in public yet, but I will be soon, and I’d like to do it with my wife! Maybe I can talk her into going to another town? I know there are no support groups in our area, I’ve checked, but Minneapolis/St. Paul is only 5 or 6 hours away, maybe I can join a group out that way and visit every few months.
Anyway, thanks for listening, all those who made it all the way through this really long post!