So here I am stuck at work, but I feel like I just want to cry. It's a pretty boring day nothing to do really either so that does not help much with distracting myself with work.
For the whole of yesterday and today, there is just no energy. It's like I just wish I could crawl into my bed and forget the world. Of course I should not let myself lull over thoughts such as those since it makes this whole thing harder. its a horrible thing because it pushes everything back and since I'm trying to walk through all this confusion and mess, its like taking one step forwards and two back. Maybe some people are just meant to stay the way they are.
I was not even sure if I should write this, but when your feeling alone you have to reach out to someone?
Maybe if I just close my eyes and pretend I'm not here. Just hope that no one looks. But don't worry, its ok to ignore this post.
~Jen - Not really here (feeling like a idiot)