I started dressing at an early age, secretly trying on my mothers and sisters sexy things and getting a huge thrill from it all.
In my 20's I could look pretty good, stockings, garter, and quite fem (I will say myself my ass looked good dressed ).
I had cross-dressing friends I'd see occasionally, have some fun with, but being married, busy, settled, I stopped trimming my body hair (I'm quite hairy), grew older (I'm 51) and while fit and proportionate, I'm definitely masculine, balding, grew a goatee etc.
I look pretty decent for a guy, but I'm far from passable as a girl so these days I just occasionally dress in lingerie privately, still get a thrill out of it all, but I do in many ways miss those earlier times when I felt fem as opposed to feeling like the masculine guy in lingerie that I am
Just wondering how many others share this experience, the sense of still enjoying but not really belonging (sigh).
I don't try to look fem anymore as I know it just won't work, but I still the look and especially the feel and wish I had somebody to share it with.
Anyway, my first proper post, so there you go