Its one thing playing dress up.
Its entirely another thing having a legitimate identity to back the looks up.
I went out as Vanessa for only the second time the other night. Nothing eventful happened in public. But this time was different from my first, I actually had someone to go with. My GG girl friend, San Mari accompanied me. Since I came out to her, we have become besties .
It was completely different being with her in public. I conversed as a female for like the first time! Just being around her made me want to try making my voice as fem as possible, amongst other things. I have felt so different since that night. I have hung out with her dressed up before, but not in public.
Since that night a few days ago...I can kind of feel like my feminine persona is starting to take over. I can imagine the woman inside of me, now. Since I am debating Transsexual vs. Cder (I am on testosterone blockers) this is starting to make me think I might actually go through with it all.
Its hard to put into words...I just feel like something changed inside of me
For those of you that have some sort of identity...how did that identity come about for you?