Hey everyone,
my SO seems to not realise what it really means to me to CD. She seems to think it's a sexual thing because I mainly do it when I try to meet up with other CD TG girls and guys, that's not the case. For me it's more a comfort thing, I feel more comfortable in feminine attire, and as for meeting or using dating sites to meet others like me, it's that I would feel more comfortable with them because I know that they are the same ad won't ridicule me.
My SO is accomidating of my dressing, but has said before that there are more times when she needs me to be her husband and that sometimes she just doesn't want to see me. Lately I've tried to dress more, I rarely dress anyway, and she has told me again that she is ok with it. But I can't tell whether she is just saying it to make me feel better or whether it's one of those times where she feels wierded out by it.
She says it turns her on a little bit, and I know that's true, but as I said how do I know it's not one of the times that she feels repulsed by it, in effect by me? I refuse to ask persmission to be myself. Even if at times I get messed up and caught up in the opposite side of the coin where I even put myself down!
I know I'm not the only one who does this an I apologised to everyone I've never met or even have met for the things I think about us sometimes but I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels like that sometimes.