Well Ladies,
Went out for awhile tonight for a little Steph time, and i have been thinking long and hard as to what i want in life. Caught in a dilema as i have a wonderful wife... 2 beutiful little girls and then thier is me... Mixed up Male who wished he never been born this way... i only want to make my family happy, but finding the more i try to do the right things for them... the further and further into a depressed state i fall.
I find myself Yearning to become a full fleged women, but by doing this i lose my wife (and great friend) and the children that mean the world to me. It has gotten to a point where i think maybe i would be better off not being around. The constant looking for friends to connect with is also a drain on me as want to spend time with other ladies like myself but getting so tired of looking for like women, as many are into searching for varieties of different relationships (i.e. Dateing and even more) where i just wish for friendships.
Let me know if this sounds familiar and let me know if you have any advice as to what i should do to attempt to tame my mood swings as they get pretty bad from time to time.