Maybe it's because of the stage I'm at in my life where I have come to realize that I cannot continue denying the woman inside me. In other words my feminine side. I think we reach a point in our lives which because of either age or some event or circumstance that happens in our lives each one of us realizes the need to feel more comfortable with who we are inside.
Instead of feeling guilty or ashamed at our feelings about being feminine as society wants us to, we finally see that we are OK. Myself, I have always hidden my feminine side from family, friends and co-workers. I knew that people wouldn’t accept me as me. So I built a wall and put everything that was feminine about me behind that wall too scared to let any feeling escape that might show my femininity.
I functioned as only part of who I really was inside. I lived my life as feeling incomplete, unhappy, knowing a major part of me, who I am inside was missing. I was functioning with many of my natural feelings and emotions being repressed.
Finally many years later an event in my life happened that destroyed my manhood and now I find myself having to put the masculine side behind that wall and bring out my feminine side after all these years. It’s the only way I can survive now. Even though I dress outwardly as a male because of my family I always under dress as a woman and act feminine and submissive when alone or with my wife. I now feel more at ease and happy with myself as the person I was always meant to be.
How many other “girls” have reached the point where you are finally beginning to accept yourselves for who you are?
“I should have been a girl because that’s who I am inside.”
Vicki