OK... does this sound familiar?
I've spent the last few weeks talking to a lady I met online... many, many great long emails, which evolved into many great long phone calls. Everything looks good, everything is clicking, things seem to be going in the right direction. I told her about my crossdressing and she seemed really OK with it. I thought for sure I had "broken the curse". Then Saturday, I didn't hear anything from her, I tried to remain positive... this morning I get the "Dear John" email from her.
Yeah..the whole "I don't think I can handle it" story. She also said she didn't understand why I still am with the parents (she KNEW my history - divorce, bankruptcy, only recently getting back to a lucrative job, etc). It's not as if I hid ANYTHING from her. She came across as someone very non-judgmental that you could tell anything to.
Yeah, I wish my living arrangement was anything but what it is... but with the economy the way it is, trying to get back on my feet, needing to invest in an entire house worth of furniture, etc, (or find a good room mate situation - someone who could accept the CD and 2 big dogs), I figure I am best to just bide my time.
HELLO! ALLIE TO THE WORLD - THIS SH*T AIN'T EASY!
Sorry... just need to vent.. I am so angry, let down, discouraged right now I am shaking. WTF????
On the good news side of things, spoke to an old dear friend last night who was recently married. She in now expecting, and I am very, very happy for her, because I know this has been her dream. She told me she would invite me to the baby shower and that I was welcome to come as either Allie or Allen. Why can't there be more girls like her?