I'm trying to figure this out. In the past 5+ years, my spiritual balance has been pretty good. It would be low at times, like anyone, but generally I felt... centered. I could feel that energy inside me, and when I spent time in nature, it was heaven.
Nowadays, I feel kind of hollow. It's like a part of my soul is missing, for lack of better wording. Even time spent in the outdoors seems kind of empty. I like it, but it doesn't have the same sparkle as it used to.
I'm trying to pin down the cause. Work is okay, even if the job seems a bit longish. My gf is going through some work stress, but it shouldn't be affecting me this much. Seasonal affective disorder? Nah, it's not the middle of winter yet. Finances are not ideal, but they are not overwhelming, either.
Crossdressing? Ahhhhh.... maybe. My lack of internal balance seems to coincide with when Jessie made her "official" appearance. The basic background, in case you wondered, is that I have been a very intermittent crossdresser for about 30 years (mostly lingerie). It was only a few months ago that I actually cd'ed in front of another person (my loving and very open minded gf). I'm already halfway to the deep end of femininity, and it feels pretty good. Despite that, I can't help but wonder if there isn't some correlation between feeling down and dressing like a woman.
Any have any thoughts, advice, or similar experiences that they can share?
Greatly appreciated
Jessie