I was just about to finally go out in public on a date with another CD who was going to be in boy mode. This is a huge fantasy of mine. To be treated like a girl on a date with the doors opening, the paying for my dinner, the hand holding, the footsie under the table and such. All of that. I was so excited and scared also. OMG I need a new dress what will I wear, are my shoes going to look right, do I have the right makeup? Just fun panic though.
However, when my wife found out that I was going to be leaving the house dressed up as a girl, she went ballistic. She cannot fathom why I would want to go out in public dressed as a girl. She thinks it is doubly disgusting than she usually does about my CDing and she does not understand WHY I need to go out and subject myself to ridicule and danger. She asked me "What would the neighbors think?" The only thing I could think of is...It's like bungee jumping or something thrilling and a little dangerous. You know you want to do it and it scares you, but you feel compelled to do it because you know the rush and the thrill will be so good. Someone described to me of having feminine power over men of sorts. She was thrilled to make some men who came up to her in a club fumble their words and be nervous. That is something that most men will NEVER experience. The other side. Its situations like that that make it thrilling to go out as well as just being able to be who you want to be without being bottled up and caged inside. Just a feeling of: I'm just a girl, in the world.
So I ask, What compels you to go out into public? Do you want to? Do you need to? Do you have a burning desire? Do you know why? Maybe there is another way of explaining it to my wife that I have not thought of.