I love CDing but usually I only do it in private for a few hours.
For a 8-9 times in my life, I'd CD outdoors when I took CD holidays alone.
I was thinking about another CD holiday but can't decide. It's agonizing.
My facts are:
1. My crave for CD ebbs hours after I've performed the act. After a few hours, I would find it becoming tedious and would want a lot to revert back to male mode.
2. I have to spend weeks to prepare for one such holiday and I feel guilty about the distraction to my work and my commitments.
3. I recall when I had my CD holidays, I felt ecstatic for 1-2days visiting clubs, shopping etc and then would start to feel fed up. Eg hate the tight heels, find my corset killing me, can't stand my nails, hate putting on my contact lens and mascara. I once cut short a CD vacation as I couldn't stand the 2 hour long makeup despite being crazy about it days before.
4. I always dream about the girl I see in the mirror as I thought I look gorgeous. Yet, when I look at my photos, I know I don't pass that well (although still has some potential).
5. My SO hates my CDing.
6. I feel super relaxing and most excited with I'm walking in a mall en femme, chatting with a guy or something more......and for me, I can only do these things in a vacation.
I know it's my decision. Yet I'm opening myself so that some of you can share your views. Should I go ahead with my CD vacation this year?