Okay, so I missed Halloween by a week or so. My mom died a few years ago before I really got into CDing. Mind you, there has been life-long interest on my part, but it was only in the summer of 2006 that I really became uh, um, "dedicated" to the lifestyle. At any rate, if my mom IS able to see what I've been up to from her afterlife, I usually think that her first sight of me en femme was a huge "ah-ha" moment in which she thought, "I knew there was something different/special about that one," LoL. I know for a fact that of the three kids, I was the favorite--I'm the youngest AND the only boy, after all.
However, in her latest bid to curtail my CDing, my SO told me that she was picking up the vibe that my dead mother's spirit was restless because of me being a crossdresser. Can you believe that sh*t? Of all the low down tactics--to claim that my mother who she met all of two times, and who knew the depth of my misery in this marriage--was speaking to her from the grave! OMG, I am at my wits end. Oh yeah, my SO also says that "knows" when I have crossdressed because of her psychic abilities--so far she's 0-10 in that department, LoL.
The thought of not seeing my child and pain that would come from being viciously outed are the only things that keep me around, but I am slowly losing my grip. Not looking for solutions, or recommendations, just needed a chance to vent in a safe place. Thinking seriously about coming out to my best friend who is the most open-minded guy I know. I just don't want him to think I'm strange. Ugh.
Cheers,
Jill