Do you go out often with your spouse?
If so, what is the experience like?
I have not been out often with my wife, but it does happen. It also feels a bit awkward.
She has known for about a year and a half now that I dress. Actually, we both have. Even though I have been dressing since my teens, it always seemed more fetish like. Only in the last couple years have I understood it to be more. When I had that clarity, I told her about it.
She did not take it too well but she is trying and I am grateful for that. I know I had 30 plus years to come to my understanding, she only had the 18 months. But that may explain why she is awkward around me dressed, but why am I awkward around her?
I can probably count on one hand the amount of times she has been out with me and mostly only to go shopping. This week, we had dinner out and a movie. While we were out together, I felt constrained (if that makes sense). Like I was making an effort not to display my girly side even though I was dressed. When I am relaxed and comfortable, I can be quite girly. However not this night.
Maybe at some level, I am trying to be gentle. However, when we are home and I am not dressed, I tend to be more girly than when I was out with her. It was a strange feeling.
Has this happened to anyone else?