Hello there everyone. Well I don't usually ask for help but lately I have found myself in need of some guidance from someone more experienced. I've been interested in crossdressing for a few years now and I thought I had everything under control for the time being. However recently I've found it almost impossible to keep my mind off it any longer and it's been making me miserable. I feel like I'm doing something wrong by hiding the real me deep inside. I've never felt this strongly about my need to be myself. All of this just used to be a thought lingering in the back of my mind but I know it's only a matter of time before it surfaces.
I'm faced with the problem that probably every one of us has faced in their lives and that is whether or not to tell my parents. Being a young adult that is single and living with parents makes it difficult for me to take any steps forward to what I want to be. Especially when you also live with a younger brother who is 16 and you feel like you need to be the example or role model. All this combined with the fact that my family despises homosexuality makes this a dilemma that not even I can solve. Since nearly every crossdresser is surrounded with the stereotype of being homosexual I could not even imagine my parents reaction.
I live with my mother, stepfather, and brother currently and like quite a few families we don't get along at all. I'm still very self conscious of what they will think of me though for some strange reason. I guess it's a natural fear of some sort that i must overcome. So what is one to do in a situation such as mine?
I suspect that my brother and mother may already know bits and pieces of the story though. Since my brother shares my computer and has mentioned sites I've visited in the past. I guess that's what I get for saving my browsing history.
I'm thinking about going back to school or something to get a career I enjoy rather then working all these lame jobs. So staying with my parents helps me out a lot until I make a decision on what direction I want to go in life. Do I repress all of my real feelings inside and wait until I'm on my own to be feminine or do I secretly do both at the same time and run the risk of being caught? The more mature you become you realize that life is short and you have to make your choices fast or you will havewasted too much time.