I am planning to have a vacation en femme for a week. I'll just be my feminine self all that time, visit places and just relax. I really look forward to that and had planned for a few weeks already. I've been to several trips already including Southern Comfort. Mostly, the joy started to drop after a few days but I always greatly enjoyed the experience and each trip were unforgettable. Also, I always can't stop thinking about the next trip.*
I'm totally confused whether I should have another vacation en femme in the next few weeks. The factors for and against are listed.*
PRO
1. Tremendous ecstatic feeling and excitement. (however, I did not do most of what i planned for in my previous attempts as I found I felt uneasy venturing outdoors and only managed to go out dressed a few times. I also found that the joy ebbed quickly after the 1st day)
2. Time to relax and experience something I always love
3. Learn to be mindful of this experience.
CON
1. Catastrophe if I get caught. I shall lost my job and everything I have. Don't ask me why. The risk is say 20%.
2. I feel guilty to my wife as she is against CD and I'm doing it behind her back.
3. I shall feel worried about getting caught in the act and someone revealing that only months later. This sounds neurotic to most people but it's real in my situation.
4. The preparation and the holiday will take 3 weeks off my work
5. Spending 2 weeks of my earning
6. The preparation is quite tedious
7. The anxiety few days before the trip is nerve wrecking
8. I worry about going through above points for a short lived feeling of ecstasy. That was the conclusion I had before. *It may not be worth it.
Could sisters and friends on this board give me your views
Should I go for my vacation en femme ?