When i was a child i always wanted to be a girl secretly painting my nails in the bathroom and always wearing socks or stealing my gf underwear and wearing it when i was home alone. I experimented sexually with a couple of friends but then stopped suddenly when we all became confused lol a little to much to handle back then. But then i got married at 18 and had a child, my wife and i became very experimental sexually and after stumbling on the fact that i loved when we experimented with her toys on me I starting remembering how much i missed that side of me. So after we got divorced i started buying \underwear and clothes for myself at stores always saying it was my gf birthday and asking for the clerks help. but now im in a dilemma, i experimented sexually with men for the first time and absolutely love it!! Its a very amazing experience especially when the guy embraces my cding and even calls me Tiff. But now i have a serious gf, she knows ive been bi curious and she knows about the cding, she used to not mind at all but now shes getting more serious about us and getting mad when i want to go spend a little me time dressed up with or without any sexual activity. So i dont know what to do anymore i feel bad like im pushing it on her somehow but I hate not having my time to feel the way i feel when im Tiff.