Never in a million years did I think I would have the experience I had yesterday.
I came out to my mother last week and she has been very accepting. It has been incredible to have girl conversations with my mother, discussing hair and makeup and outfits. Yesterday I was helping her clean the carpets in the house and my suitcases were stilled packed and in the floor. She told me to go ahead and put all of my clothes in the dressers so we could clean the floors in the bedroom. My mother has had the dressers in the room I am staying since I was born and she used them up until about 5 years ago for her clothing. The first articles of feminine clothing I had ever worn had been pulled out of those dressers many years ago. I brought 5 female outfits and undergarments with me and I was putting them in the drawers when it hit me – I am now putting my female clothing into the same drawers that I wore my first female clothing. I know it may sound corny but there was just something so special about that moment, like the closing of a circle that made me feel so incredible and happy.
My mother asked me why I had tears in my eyes but I did not tell her the reason (I am still concerned with pushing too far too fast) but it was just a very special moment that I never thought I would experience.
Danielle