First off, Hello! I'm new around here. This forum has been a great resource for dealing with my crossdressing.
I fit the standard CD profile, been doing it since 12, going through all the issues which are getting easier with age and maturity... you all know the story. Now the reason I'm hear is I came out to my GF a little over a year ago. It was a big shock to her and she had trouble dealing with it. Life sucked for a couple weeks. A couple visits to to couples therapist and now things are back to pre-outing days but internally it's tough for me.
I'd really like to get back into CDing but it just doesn't seem like it can happen. It would be too tough for the girl I love. Between us the CDing is pretty much not brought up because we don't want to go back to the bad time in our relationship. Every other month I almost work up the nerves to let her know how I've been feeling but it just doesn't happen. I'm just dreaming of the day she goes, "hey Buy a wig, dress, and makeup and get all dolled up for me"' but I know it won't happen.
How do you girls out there handle your feelings when a SO knows but won't budge on there stance. I have a feeling this is eating me away on the inside and effecting me emotionally. I haven't dressed in over 4 years and it kinda sucks.
Just coming here and posting this is a big step and helping me vent some CD steam.
Thanks for listening!
Kelly
P.S. I'm not too active on forums but I will check in a bunch and take in all the valuable info.