It dont post much more of a reader really as I usually dont have much that would add value to a lot of the conversations that are on here. I am married with children, and over the years my wonderful wife has gone from shocked to the most supporting loving person I could wish for.This year the need to dress has become more intense and although I have not gone out much I do dress to the nines most wekend when the children stay at grannies but I underdresss 24/7. About 2 weekends ago my wife and I were discusing my female side and we had a few glasses of wine and I become emotional and told her sometime I feel like I should be a woman. Nothing more was said but a few days later she gave me the number of an employee support network provided by her employer.
I phoned up and after an introductory conversation was put through to a telephone counsellor. She was superb and really positive. At the end she recommended that she set up six sessions of face to face counselling with one of their specialists. I agreed once she confirmed the specialist would be female.
The first session is next week but I have already started panicking, the old feelings of shame and that I am doing something wrong have come back. I am also worried I am embarking on a journey which I may lose control off and end somewhere where my world is turned upside down. My wife has tried to reassure me saying whatever the outcome she will be there for me and whilst we consider the impact on the children this would not be grounds for leaving me.
My question is, am I doing the right thing or should I avoid the counselling until I feel more positive. I am also worried that the more emotional I become I might start to annoy my wife and lose her support. If any of you knew me in male mode I have been accused in the past of being devoid of emotion, but I now find myself bursting into tears during conversations with my wife or when reading stories in the press about girls like us.
I dont expect anyone to have the answer, but I would appriciate some opinons.
Many thanks
Love
Tania