My wife has always been supportive of my dressing, occasionally buying me outfits as a surprise, or having us attend private BDSM events with me dressed. But she has always been insistent that I fulfill my role as the man of the house (which isn’t an issue) and not shave above the waist. I work at home, so we’ve fallen into a natural pattern, however, where I perform more of the role of a traditional housewife, and she has also found that to be very workable, as her Director-level job is often very stressful and not having to worry about household tasks has become a major plus for her.
My career is such that the 4-6 hours a day I devote to it is enough to make a decent income, so things go very smoothly. So over the last two years we’ve fallen into a pretty comfortable pattern. So you can imagine my surprise when, completely out of the blue, we sat down yesterday to dinner and she told me that for 2012 she would like to take this to the next level. I should start shaving completely, live the female role 24/7 with the only exception being around my adult kids and family, and we should develop more of a social life focused on TG events, groups, meetings, etc. (we’ve never attended anything like that).
I’m really nervous about this step. Even fully shaved I will be in no way passable (I’m 6’4” and 280 lbs; dieting, but I will never not stand out in a crowd, presenting as a male or female) and I’m concerned about the way people in public will react, not so much to me, but to her accompanying me. I’m sure that my attire will continue to be primarily androgynous, but she expects me to take female life seriously, which means makeup, nails, etc., all maintained and used on a daily basis, so anyone who actually looks at me will see these things.
She says that we need to do this to see where our future life goes (we are in our 50’s). She tells me that she can see how much happier and relaxed I am when I’m dressed; that the simple act of putting forms in a bra and slipping into a ladies t-shirt and jeans makes me visibly more comfortable and energetic. I know that she loves me and she tells me that she will treat me like her much loved girlfriend (she’s always been bisexual and had long romantic relationships with women in the past). She knows that I have no interest in men, and that my female self is very sexually passive and vulnerable. She tells me that she will deal with that aspect of life however she needs to. So there are no issues with that, either.
When she asks me how I feel about this all I can say is that I am nervous. I can’t really define my feelings here. It seems like such a big step; even the act of shaving will mark a major break with the past (I’ve had a beard for close to 40 years). She has asked me now if I really want to do this and my answer is that I think I do; I haven’t been able to give her a definitive “yes”. You would think that I would have an answer easily on hand, but when faced with this it seems like such a major life change.
She has also asked me to attempt to define where I am on the CD/TG spectrum. I actually have no answer for that beyond it not being a fetish thing and the fact that I am simply happier and more content with life when those forms go into the bra and I dress for the day.
Life goes on...
If you don't like the way I'm livin', you just leave this long haired country girl alone:
Originally Posted by MissMarcie
