I decided to stop dressing up for a while. Just too complicated, plus I have a new GF, figured I would give our relationship a go with out the cding. I have tried to be normal(you know what I mean) before and failed, but at this point in my life have a far deeper understanding of who I am and this has made a difference this time around.
I am reporting back to you all that I am pretty happy not wearing panties and removing body hair and hiding out on certain levels because I was always under dressed.
I do fantasize about being a woman when making love to my GF, especially when things get oral but it is still fun. And very nice to hold her close to me.
I also still "feel" like a girl almost as much as when I was dressing, though not quite as much. People were beginning to notice that I am feminine before, which I suppose was OK. But now I grew a beard and have a woman on my arm so I am totally under cover Hahaha.
I am being honest with my self and with you all. This is what I chose right now in my life.
I still visit and read the posts from time to time.
Anyway, not to write too much...I broke my shoulder, really sucks...puts me out of work and I have to come up with $$$ for surgery. So tonight I am wearing some panties and dressed up a bit today. It felt really good and relaxed me... well complex as always.