Sadly, there are too many incidents of the S.O. leaving a relationship due to the male's crossdressing. But I was curious if anyone has ever left their S.O. due to them not accepting crossdressing?
Quick summary - When I met my wife, I told her about my crossdressing within a month of us dating. I wanted to be completely honest right from the start, plus I only wanted to be with someone who would accept this part of me. She was unsure at first, but said it was something that she felt she could accept. Fast-forward to 7+ years of marraige, and the best that I get is tolerance. Granted, she has tried, by buying me a few pieces of clothing and occasionaly being ok with me wearing something while we're intimate. But still, during those times, her biggest focus is how long she needs to wait for me to take it off. She's said that it does nothing for her, and sometimes is actually a turn-off. Othertimes if I'm dressed around the house, she becomes more distant and there is hardly any physical contact.
I feell very frustrated and sometimes downright angry about this. I was totally honest, and even told her that if this was something she couldn't accept, then we probably shouldn't pursue the relationship. I feel like I've been cheated out of acceptance and enjoyment that I wanted in my marriage. I can see if I had told her 3 years in that I'd be in no position to complain, but I was upfront about this right from the start.
We've tried councelling, but it doesn't seem to have helped things change at all. I feel that my femme persona is about 20% of who I am, so as a result, I'm only getting 80% of a full, loving marriage right now. Am I wrong to expect her to change, and accept and support me? Or I am being selfish here and being unreasonable to her feelings. feel like my femme side is being totally suffocated and it's causing all of me to feel horrible. It makes me really wonder if we can keep this marriage together.
Any thoughts or advice would be most helpful.
Sarah C.