Originally Posted by
ReineD
I brought this up in SweetPea's thread yesterday. I have referenced my SO's femme presentation by her feminine name just to differentiate between both modes of presentation ... (although I do my best now to say to him, "when you're in femme mode" instead of referring to her femme name as the third person who isn't even in the room).
But I DON'T understand CDers who say about themselves, "She likes to dance more than I do", or "She's a lot more outgoing than I am", or "She loves to do housework in a sexy maid's outfit", instead of "I like to dance more when I am dressed, or I feel more outgoing when I am dressed, or I find housework more palatable when I fantasize that I'm a sexy French maid". And the most worrisome of all, "She fantasizes about men but only when dressed".
But even if a CDer learns to stop referring to himself dressed as a third person, although I think I understand why a division in some personality attributes or preferences (sexual or otherwise) might come about, why would anyone be happy with a non-integrated life? Either someone likes to dance or they don't. Either they are outgoing, or they're not. Either they are bi or they're not.
Is is a question of enjoying the fantasy? Would it then stop being so special (hence the pink fog might disappear) ... if a CDer in guy mode felt he could do everything in guy mode that he has thus far not given himself permission to do, such as dance, flirt, be sexy, bake a cake, or whatever.
Or, is it safer somehow to keep things at the fantasy level, as if it might progress farther than feels comfortable if all these preferences and attributes are integrated into the male self?
Does anyone have any insight?