I have a situation on the horizon and need to seek some wise opinion.
I recently told a friend about me and she's been fantastic, giving me support and also looking at pictures of me in make up (it's not a pretty sight) to give me tips. Anyway, last night she said she had a load of clothes of hers that she is going to send me, which is beyond kind and generous of her and I should be thrilled BUT, and here's the thing, I think it will be weird to wear her stuff because i'm in love with her.
We met at University 12 years ago and I told her I loved her back then but she didn't reciprocate. However we stayed friends and I think she probably assumes that my feelings have disappeared over the years, especially as we rarely see each other (we communicate online and on phone chiefly) but the problem is they haven't and now I don't know what to do about these clothes she's sending.
I realise all this makes me sound pretty pathetic, and trust me I'm aware of this, but I just don't know if because of how I feel about her it would be weird to wear her stuff. I can't ask her not to send it because she'll ask why not but she's asked me to send her pics of me in it so I can't not put them on when they arrive.
I suppose I'm worried that, amongst other things, I'll feel like I'm trying to 'be' her instead of Miranda and start to use her as some kind of aspirational feminine yardstick from then instead of trying to be myself or something.
Sorry to have gone on so long and hope that all makes a kind of sense and doesn't make me come across as some kind of lovelorn loon but I'm just really confused about what to do and starting to panic a bit. Any guidance will be gratefully received.
(Also please don't hate me for what must seem like moaning at the prospect of a massive bag full of free clothes. Trust me, any other friend sending me gratis clobber and I'd be the happiest girl in the world)