Lately, I've pondered the progression of my outward femininity over the past year and a half. What used to terrify me is now so normal. This isn't a new topic, I'm sure, and we can all identify with it to some extent. My point is that I think it's remarkable how my brain adapts and my emotions change as I explore pushing the envelope.
For example, I've started wearing very bright nail polish 24/7 a couple of weeks ago. Oddly, I just don't care what anyone thinks about it. I wouldn't have done that months ago. I'm 52, so it's not like I'm latching on to some kind of youth-driven trend, if there is one. I'll also wear makeup in guy mode and it just feels normal to me. The first time I did these things, I didn't force myself to do them. Instead, it suddenly just felt OK and safe. Which left me thinking, "what happened in my head?"
I'm uncertain how much my progression of displaying obvious signs of femininity stems from mental/emotional adaptability, or just feeling like, "oh what the hell." Maybe it's the same thing. Regardless, I'm amazed at how fast I become comfortable with things which used to scare me. It's significant that I don't expect to encounter anything down the road which I won't quickly turn from "I'd never do that" to "of course I do that."
Question: Does everyone follow some sort of progression like I've described, or do some people get to a point and just don't go further? I'm not implying there's anything wrong with boundaries or fear. But in my case, at times I think my only persistent "fear" is that every other cross dressing-related fear melts away automatically.