I decided to use my company's employee assistance program to discuss my issues with gender identity and crossdressing. Over the past couple of years I have found that I am spending increasing amounts of time trying to fix myself, s to speak, and in looking for ways to balance my need to express my feminine side with the need to maintain a family and career. It has become a significant disruption to life, so off I went.
She was very easy to talk to and had past TG clients - about 20 years ago. Unfortunately I felt like I knew more about the subjects than she did. She got a good intake but was unaware of what path forward to take. She at one point wondered if I had considered having a homosexual experience to see if that was what I wanted. I politely explained that I didn't feel homosexual, and what most gay men want is another gay man, not a man who is confused about his gender.
I finally asked what her views on horomones were, with the preface that I did not want to go through with SRS, but thought it would help me balance my inner conflicts. I based this on an experience about a year ago where was had to take estrogen for a prostate issue and noted that after 5 days on estrogen I felt better than I had in years! She told me that it would probably change my voice and reduce my beard...a lengthy education session followed!
Anyway, I will try talking to her one more time in 2 weeks to see if she has prepared herself any better.