For me it never started out as me wanting to look or feel feminine. I just loved the clothes. I have no brothers, or more importantly for me, no sisters :-( I think when it first started I was wandering around the house exploring when I saw some of mums clothes. I wanted to try them. I remember thinking of playing pretend and also it was a slight sexual thrill. "This is sexy and a little bit naughty" I would think to myself. Anyway, I tried on more each time I had the opportunity. My favourite items were actually the bras. I must have been doing this for three or four years, with a few near misses of being caught. Eventually I got caught but it never stopped me. It has since progresse d over the years and never left me. Yet now I find myself wanting to look and feel feminine rather than how I started. I think that's a good thing.