I think crossdressing is cursed with bad karma. It has negatively affected my life in friendships, employment, and every time I went paranoid it was related to crossdressing. When I was in H.S. in English Class I had a moment where I thought God asked me, "How do you want to be tested in life?" I realized if I was tempted by money, then that would too great a temptation to bear. So I joked to God, "-Being Gay!" And now years later I realize my test concerned crossdressing... When I was young and replied that way to God, I was a macho dude stud into cool bmx freestyle in the 80's. I never thought I would be gay or into men... [I'm not into men].
My biggest weakness now is that I want to be a beautiful woman, I'd rather have a vagina, I'd rather have sex as a woman and not as a man, and that I am often tempted to wear anything women's clothes because I just want to know how it feels to wear those clothes. I has been my dream in H.S. to wear a nice cheerleader outfit and that dream has come true. But now this is a temptation I must resist.
So, I am a reluctant crossdresser here! I might be thinking of quitting, and I don't post much pics anymore like I used to. If I quit crossdressing my dream is to find a beautiful woman my size and height and dress her up in my big clothes collection. I did advertise this once in Craigslist but the women responding weren't pretty enough, and then some were spam. It would be dreadful to purge such a beautiful collection of clothes that I amassed since losing weight from 2004. So I ask God to "convert" me with a beautiful woman...
So how about you? Has crossdressing put negative karma in your life?