I was thrift shopping a 50% off sale at Village this Saturday, and I noticed maybe 2 or 3 lesbians. One wore a baseball cap and dressed like a dude. Another was almost bald with a shaved head. When I see these type of butch dyke lesbians sometimes I detest them saying, "Why don't they appreciate their femininity and enjoy being a girl?" Yeah, I kinda don't like butch dykes like Chaz Bono... in fact, maybe I hate them a little but I tolerate them. And I have never seen a butch dyke lesbian at any job I had ever worked.
But then I think it might be a little hypocritical of me to think this way... I mean, I do the same thing... I like dressing up and wishing I was a woman. I should appreciate my manhood but my manhood was shot down in Sr Yr H.S. [bad experience with girls and society]. I tried being a successful man but I never had a good paying job that lasted 5 to 10 years. I never sought out being gay or having sex with men, so I don't consider myself gay but people condemn me for being gay or a big nerd for my crossdressing.
So what are your thoughts about this?
I also wouldn't like a feminine wife to turn into a butch dyke, and I'd like her to dress feminine and not like a man, - except maybe during role reversal sex or so...
I'm thinking about quitting crossdressing again because as I reflect on my life and past "episodes," - I think crossdressing is cursed. I tell God I won't purge, rather, I want a pretty woman my size and height to wear my clothes. So I ask God to "convert me..." I resisted purging back in Feb 2009.