I've been semi-seriously dressing for a couple of years now. Came out to my wife at that time, and she has been super supportive since (even when I thought I was TS). She has repeatedly told me it is okay to dress in front of her, but I still have a real hard time with it. I still feel shame and disgust with myself sometimes, and I honestly thought I was over that.
I know I should acknowledge my femme side more, because it makes me feel better when I do. Yet part of my actively fights it. Why? Geez, its not like I am a kid anymore (in my 40's).
Anyone have any thoughts on this?