I guess I must be turning a corner and not sure how I fel about it. This weekend is my Easter, & I plan on attending Midnight ceremony and on Sunday I'm spending the day with relatives. Since I'm still in the closet around family and locally, I need to stay in drab. I attend a MCC church otherwise & I attend there as Nikki.
As it 's coming time where I need to start getting ready, I'm bummed in that there is a part of me that would really like to wear some of my femme clothes and I feel like I can't.
Never really felt like this before and it is a little disturbing. In that my aunt's family was in the dress business (BRIDAL SHOP), I know with their experience they'd pick up on anything unusual and even underdressing is not an option in that this is a hugging type of group.
Oh well, I guess this is just a mini vent, but some words of wisdom would be appreciated.