I spent from Friday after work to Sunday night en femme. I mean makeup, nails, wig, the whole nine yards. Since I had to do some things Monday I knew I had to go back to drab. After I did I felt a sense of relief. While I'll admit I was completely content dressed I was also a prisoner in my home. I still have a lot of insecurities going out dressed to do everyday things. I've done it a couple of times but for the most part I'm scared to death. Only when I'm heading out to TG friendly places am I comfortable.
So when I changed back I felt this sense of relief because I knew I was now free to do things w/o fear. I can leave the house and interact with society again. I don't have to worry about some kid walking by and seeing me when I let the dog out (I live next to a park). I can go across the street and get my mail without the cover of darkness. When I think about all this I find it really sad.
I don't see me changing my attitude and I don't see society changing their's. Too bad. I'm a pretty decent person to know, dressed or drab.
Anyone else feel this way?